It was summer of 2014 when I first got to know Bill while going through a difficult period with now, my ex-husband. Bill was one of few people who always asked me about my day when I passed him and gave me a much needed smile. I felt grateful for his support and as I got to know him a little better and listened to his stories, I found him to be an intriguing, intelligent and good-hearted man. He did not deserve to be in this kind of situation.
From the media, I had heard success stories resulting in rough-sleepers being able to get off the street with help from the local community. I realized that nothing was stopping me from doing the same for Bill. I decided to make a film about him and his life on the street. The film’s overriding objective was simply to raise awareness of the daily difficulties and dangers of sleeping rough in London, whilst creating an honest portrait of Bill.
Bill readily agreed as he wanted his story to be heard and I made a promise to him that it would be worthwhile. At first when we started filming it all seemed enjoyable and intriguing, but everything turned on its head, as Bill revealed that he for some time had been in love with me. From that moment the story I planned to tell changed.
After the filming finished, I was left with an overwhelming feeling of disappointment and sadness that I wasn’t able to help him. For a long time, I was not able to look through the footage at all as it just brought back painful memories.
While looking through the footage fresh in 2018, I realised that even though the objective of helping Bill was lost, we had captured a different kind of story. It was about mine and Bill’s relationship.
A very human story of love. For me, that proved my initial objective that no matter if you live on the street you share the same needs as anyone else, one of them to love and being loved in return.
I strongly hope this film is a worthwhile legacy of the man I came to know. A man who could be manipulative and erasable, and sometimes scary, but who always took the time to cheer up all who passed by him, even though he needed their help more than they needed his.
CONCURIOUSFILMS PRESENTS "JINXSIE" DOCUMENTARY DIRECTED BY MARZENA MILOWSKA CINEMATOGRAPHY BY ÅSMUND BERGE JENSSEN EDITED BY FREDRIK GUSTAFSSON MUSIC BY PHIL ARCHER ADDITIONAL MUSIC BY AMINI AND PETER KELLY VISUAL EFFECTS BY LUMA PIXEL STUDIOS PRODUCTION ASSISTANT OLIVIA WILSON PRODUCED BY MARZENA MILOWSKA
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